About

First off to explain my blog title. I am THE youth leader at my very small church in the very small town that I live in. I live in the Midwest right smack dab in the middle of cornfields. Don’t believe me? It’s true.  All around my town are nothing but cornfields and hog confinements. Add to that fact I am a nurse so the smell of feces doesn’t even faze me anymore.

I will admit that I have a tendency to ramble and to be just a tad insane (no laughing I do have some sane moments). There are times where I make no sense at all. Just ask my three children.

I am a single mother who has the three most amazing boys in the world. Whatever I have done in my life and whatever mistakes I have made those three will always be the best things that I have ever done. I would give my life for my sons and I live for them.

I have struggled in my life to know what I want and to do it. I am a LPN and I absolutely LOVE it. I feel that I was placed on this earth to help people and being in health care and ministry is the best places for me.

Unfortunately my divorce was just finalized and many of my blogs focus on the pain and the questions that I feel and have during this time. I try to live my life as Jesus would want me to but hey I’m only human I am going to fail at that sometimes.

I have said that it isn’t whether or not you fall but how quickly you stand back up.

I have been told that I am an enigma and that it will take people a lifetime to figure me out. To that I say good luck. I’m ME and I have had thirty years to try and figure myself out and I still confuse myself. I recently heard a song by the group Shinedown called Breaking Inside and I love the chorus. “I don’t wanna live to face another day underneath the shadow of mistakes I’ve made.” That is so true. I have made many mistakes in my life but I will not let them dictate my life. I also love  the song If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback. “If today was your last day if tomorrow was to late could you say goodbye to yesterday?” There are many songs that I love and live by but those are two that fit me right now. I also love One More by Superchick.

I’m not going to lie and tell you that I have all the answers or that I lead the perfect lifestyle. I do try to be the godly woman that God requires me to be but I do slip. I will be honest and admit when I do though. I could ramble on and on about my self and fill many pages but I wouldn’t even begin to scratch the surface of what makes me me.

I will say thank you for stopping by and reading my blog and I hope you enjoyed the quick visit into my crazy and chaotic mind.

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